DREAMS (self visualization)

Dia:Beacon

Dia Beacon was an interesting museum to go to. The actual space was spectacular. The place was huge and so airy considering the building was an old factory. My favorite piece was Richard Cerra. I absolutely loved it because i have heard so much about his work but never had experianced first hand. And it was really was amazing as everyone said it would be. There were some other peices such as Bruce Nauman's video (which scared me) and Robert Smithson's Map of Broken Glass (which truly captivated me).

POEM

The Behavior of Bodies, the Motion of Clocks
by Michael Evans

An orbit is a way of keeping time--
not a metaphorfor life
together with another life--a body and a bodyat odds with the room's linear constraints.
(The room itself is not a metaphor
for how we live.)
The bed does not unfold like two hands--one circling
the otherand transparent--as if loneliness
(the beating silence of these days
he lives without speaking) were enough
to suggest that time and distance are measured
with the same equation.
At night, he sets the clock
to an hour
that already exists
(thinly, as light)beyond the orbits he understands--
the comings and goingsof doctors, this routine of pills.He listensto the elliptical path
of his breathingand he knows the universe will not collapsein time to save his youth(for yourself, sir, shall grow old as I am,if like a crab you could go backward).
He dreams himself a young man,
but wakes to nothingless than he is.
He is not allowed a mirror and does not lookat his hands. Breathing, he countshimself to sleep. Were he a crab, he would give up this shell

WORD VISUALIZATION

Project 2: Self Visualization

Over the course of my life, I have discovered that truth and my relationships with people held great importance to me. Especially when I would see people that I cared about were going through something, whether it was a small annoyance to tragic catastrophe, I wanted to be a good friend to them and help them get over it. So when I would ask, “How are you?” I wanted the real answer, not the usual “I’m fine.” or “Good.” And if they did answer that, and I knew it was not, I would do my best to help them. I also realized, that even though I would actually want to know the answer to “How are you?”, whatever it may be- many people don’t care. So oftentimes, I like everyone else, just had to tell people with the generic “I’m okay.”

Now with this project, I have a direction that I want to run with. Where the foreground/focus is myself with a basic pleasant face, but surrounding it, it shows what I am truly feeling, my real opinions, and what is really going on.

ARTIST COMPARISON

Cui Xiuwen’s pictures are visually captivating with the use of repeated images and surreal atmosphere. Many of the works consist of many girls in front of an architectural structure; an organic foreground with a inorganic background, also creating a stress. There is a definitely a darker undertone that produce agitation with the use of bright colors. These pictures of young girls in white dresses signify innocence give the feel of angelic purity that is often associated with young girls. But the figure itself, does not give off such serene innocence but that of confusion, loneliness, dread and despair. A common motif is also a young pregnant teen, which is a scary thought in itself. That just ties in with the overall feeling of confusion and ultimately lost.

The film stills of Cindy Sherman are absolutely poignant and dark. Women, especially in old movies, had specific roles: the dumb and beautiful, the good girl and the seductive vixen. Her stills portrayed more than that, the humanity of women. Most look like they are straight out of a Hitchcock or the gritty disappointment and stress of the everyday. Many of the models have a look of fear which can be interpreted so many ways. Examples one can see is the fear of being dominated or the fear of being stifled or the fear of society looking down upon them for the countercultural way of living their own life.

I have always been aware of Frida Kahlo and her works but it was not till now did I realize how much symbolism and meaning went into her works. Each self portrait, she gave a narrative of all the pain and confusion she had suffered through out her life. She combined her heritage of Mexico with that of modern Surrealism seamlessly to create powerful images that we instantly realize to be Frida Kahlo. These self portraits were in no means literal, but they were direct in point. Especially after doing a little research on her life, you empathize with her and each picture a more beautiful and immensely personal look at a painting revolutionary.

ILLUSTRATOR